Poetry - Darkness


It comes. I can feel it.
Spreading everywhere.
Taking over …
Consuming, caressing, and intensifying
Everything I feel.

Darkness. It eats me whole and leaves me raw.
The power of it holding me down,
Making it impossible to breathe.

Where do I end and it begins?
Is there a difference?
I don’t think so. It’s gone on for so long that it’s taken over me.

Light?
Killed, maimed, and lost …
To weak to survive what’s inside.
Did it have a chance?
God I wish it did,
Because then I would have won the battle.

Not going to happen.
To weak, lost, scared,
Fucked up, and beyond relief.

Use to care, what happened?
When did I let it win?
Why did I let it win?

So lost, need to be found.
Will you?
Please do, if not then fuck it and fuck you.

I asked, surprised that I did.
Souls.
Does anybody have a soul?
I don’t think so, they are all gone.

Escaped.
Lucky them, wish I had thought of that.
Damn it!

Where is mine?
Is it happy?
Hope not,
Why should it be if I’m not?

Pain, tears,
… Make it stop.
I can’t take it anymore.
I want, need, love, and hate you.

Why?
Because you are you and I am me.

Fucked up.
Can two souls meet and not destroy each other?

Use to believe but can’t anymore
Lost in the grief, pain, and hate.
Want to be found,
But by who? You? What a joke!
If I waited for you I would be dead before you showed up.

Dead anyway.
Soul is gone, left me behind …
Bitch, you belonged to me, and I to you.
My soul not you.

Now? Nothing …
Even then there was nothing.
Family, friends, lovers, and haters.

Guess what?
All the same people, just with a different mask on.
What mask will you wear today?
Because the darkness will always win,
That’s the best part.

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